Mental note

Nothing is impossible.

Grow up, hun.

Final decision

Decision has been made. Learning to accept responsibility from what I have decided is now the top of my to-do list. Yet, please allow me to grumble for a little more longer. I am so used to cling on to the past and refuse to accept changes. I prefer to stay in stagnancy than to accept challenges. But now, I make my first little move to stop going with the flow and my heart.

This is the proof.

Resolution #1: Never look back and remain static for unnecessary reflection.

Grr. It is the hardest one to start with in fact. -___-

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There are pretty much things in my head awaiting to be spilled out before I give my full 100% attention to page 178.

1. I can't wait I just can't wait any longer.

2.The decisions that I need to make are just too many. Ignorance is bliss.

3. Keukenhoff was one of the top since young. It was rather disappointed when I knew that it is impossible to drown myself in the midst of the tulips.

4. The spacecake which didn't send me to the outer space tasted so good has made me doubted its genuineness.

5. I think my parents are pretty much intrigued by the red light district.

6. Sometimes I can be such ignorant that I despise myself.

7. I realised. I always know. I understand. But I just can't help putting myself in denial.

8. I gotta put a stop to these. It's getting me to nowhere.

9. I learnt things quite sometime ago. But I only get to slap myself back to reality and accept it today.

10. I am so used to hypnotising myself so that I thought I understand whereby I don't in most cases.

Ah. Now you realised that I couldn't tell good stories, don't you.

The blabber continues

Wah. Can you believe it. I'm actually writing my second post within 2 hours. As a result of unpublished thoughts. Yes, if you would kindly refer to the previous post. This is the most productive day ever. I would like to blog about my April's fool. But since it is nothing to be proud of, so let's keep that for the day when I'm out of idea to blog.

The back of my head hurts so much and I wonder if it is because of caffeine overdose. And now my wild imagination actually convinced me that caffeine the stimulant could somehow overstimulate the brain cells and lead them to apoptosis, can you believe it. Now the apoptotic mechanisms are sending signals to the C fibres and why am I talking scientific all of a sudden? And you still haven't point your cursor to that little red 'x' on the top right corner haven't you because I would have if I were you.

Anyway, speaking of apoptosis, I'm really glad I have this special ability to turn off the pathway which generates synaptic plasticity. Which will in turn encourage endorphin release indirectly. Wah I'm so proud of myself I can actually thought of so many analogies from what I have learnt. And my special ability is superior than goldfish memory because I get to choose what to stay in my brain can you actually believe me.

I was once told that I can be so timid at a moment and brave at the next. Schizophrenic she said. Thanks weeyin but I went for a checkup already and I'm seriously fine. Now I would like to elaborate on this point but my headache has already spread to my eyes instead. So I guess it's bed time now. Good night.

Fragmentary thoughts

So close, but yet so far.

I have soooooo many thoughts floating in my head but I just could not put them into proper sentences. These fragmental pieces if I were to write them down, I bet you'll give up reading the rest of the entry because it sounds something like &*%$^*.

Now, get it?

But, on second thought, this is MY blog. I have no obligation to consider you the readers' feelings. Is it not true? If not, this blog would not land on a site called her silly thoughts dot blogspot dot com. I have the right to post my silly stupid whatsoever thoughts that I have right now, am I not right again.

*Paused for 2 seconds*

Anyway I have no silly thoughts right now lah. It slipped out of my mind before my fingers are quick enough.

Wah. If you could bear reading this post up till this point, I salute you. I have just contradicted myself if you'd noticed. And this post is totally meaningless wtf.

Now, did you get my meaning of being incoherent?

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I dreamt about you. Again.

Where are you, C?